Nite i like dying!!!

   Last nite, after i update blog.. I been attack again wit HYPERVENTILATION.. About 20 min. Thanx God i still alive..

The most important is my family dont knw about it.. Only azema knw.Coz i sms her.. last nite is all happen coz i so tired n  stress.. Mybe nw i cnt be stress.. huhuhuhu.. I have to control my breath so cant be happen again. thanx god i can relax back to normal..Thanx to azema.. She give me a support.. 

Last nite i Stress coz i dont get kplspm n i feel so down.. huhuhu
I feel my time not long.. So i wan to thanx everyone n say sorry.. LOVE U ALL...

Y??? Mybe i really cnt become a teachers...

I just check kplspm... i dont get interview... tht y wat i said to my parents i really cnt teach.. Nw i really no luck la.. Its shw tht.. I not sure wheter i eppy about it o sad about it...

I juat blur.. Wat i knw my cousin get it.. Congrate dear.. but i dont like the sound of my aunty said..
"Oh, mek tak dpt eh?"
it so sound pity n 'perli'..
I knw la tht i stupid.. SO??? No need be like tht.. I knw u cre.. But not in this way.. I dah cukup rendah diri..
Pleaz jgn jdkan keyakinan diri yg i bina blik mse kat kem plkn HILANG!!!!PLEEAAZZZ.. I begging u..

Mybe u not notice it.. I just wan a peace live.. I knw myself.. I knw tht i Stupid!!! so no need to be like insult me. Yeah.. I a big loser!!! i just hope one day i will be better person.. I really thanx all my fren they support me more than my own family.. Thanx fren.. Love u all...

He so sweet!!!

SOOOO SWEEETTT.....

Nw i really love him so much... Nvr thought he so sweet n romantic.. Lately he say so many sweet thng.. We chat about hw we going to date.. He say tht he want a romantic date just only us. He argue wit me about dating.. I wan to spend a day wit him while walking around n at restaurant but he just wan we date at sweet place.. He say if i tired, he will drive around.. He wan  a privacy.. He also say that he jealous hear his fren dating.. hehhehe.. My hubby so sweet.. The best thng is he sayy tht he will give me a romantic date on our first date so tht we can remember it 4ever..

I told him tht i wan to buy hp. He angry wit me said dont buy any hp. He say tht he going to buy me one.. hehhehe.. I feel like 'pisau cukur' but he say tht ur my wife so i can buuy u anythng i wan.. I crazy ask him wat hp he wan to buy 4 me. Then he say Blackberry.. Ya Allah.. Crazy expensive.. But i hope i can buy by myself..

At 4.a.m. today.. he sent me a sweet sms.. It just simple but 4 me so sweet..

If Life Is About To Live,
Then Love is About The Life,
I Love The Way I Love You
And Love The Way I Live 
This Live With You..

Suck n Not trust??

My life since little make trouble 4 evryone... I having a lot sickness.. Evrythng tht i wan almost i buy wit my saving money.. I really think tht i actually indipendent.. Just in front of my family i pretend.. They actually dont knw the real me.. Thy think tht i so 'ngada2' n 'gedik'.. Pleazzz... it really shw thy dont anythng about me.. Truth i more close to my fren.. evrythng i story 2 my fren.. Thanx fren 4 always here wit me...

About my hubby.. the truth i dont knw 2 trust him o i afraid loss him..  I really dont knw.. Nw i really love him but i prevent love him more.. I scared mybe he just 4 a moment in my life o he lie to me... Mybe he correct tht we still not meet.. tht y hard 2 trust... He dont knw i have scandal n bf..
Mybe much better 2 keep it secret..  I dnt want anyone hurt... Just i hurt its k.. I usually being hurt by many people..

I really nw knw hw feed bck to people make me hurt.. mybe I from my last experince.. My fren teach me to fight back... She correct.. Coz this is my life.. No want can say anythng o do anythng..

Mybe my standard school is suck.. Coz i so stupid just follow wat people say.. No truth fren.. thanx to fren tht always wit me.. Nw She at bottem i at top.. C nw fren who is better.. Soorrryy to say nw u suck than me bitch!!! To my best fren.. I love u Dear.. thanx...

WOW!!! i nvr thought of tht...

Wat the hell!!!!!!!!! today someone proposed me....

MY NS fren... He indian boy... Wen i ask about his mum.. He already story wit his mum about me.. Crazy lor... I nie too kind ke???  until Many guy proposed me... wat the heck!!!!!

I still thinking about it.. I already have a hubby, scandal.. Nw bf????? OMG!!!!

Wat should i do?????

Crazy day!!!

Since long i not post anythng at fb.. Busy.. hehehe... My hubby become so romantic... He just afraid i leave him.. hahahaha...

Nw i ask someone to knw about him,, Nw i waiting 4 him.. He on call.. huhuhuh... So my advise dont find as doctor if u need love n caring from a guy... hahahaha... If u like, wat can do.. Become like me la.. Boring always....

Fb nw crazy, jam, stuck... AARRGGGHHH!!! y nw babe... huhuhuhu

LOVESTORY O MIND ONLY!!!

2day... i went 2 see dentist.. so hurt lor... ngilu!!!  


N About my hubby... I nw feel that i do love him... mybe b'cause his cousin hurt me n my fren that y I wan to revenge to him.. Nw wen i think it back.. wen he ask me honestly n tell wat i dont knw.. I think nw i move on n carry on but see wat going to happen in future... All depend to Allah... If I fated with him then nothing more i can do.. If not sorry hubby...


Rite nw i take my aunt advice.. Study first.. U knw him better... If u feel safe wit him go on..


That all 4 rite nw...